The guide Lewis had come in after the others left, and witnessed the aftermath of the sexual deviancy that had taken place. He ignored the smell, which was both disgusting to him, and arousing, and instead focused on the woman laying in a puddle of her and the other Lewis’ fluids, obviously tired out from her experiences. Despite it being a trial, she looked satisfied, but more so, the magic tattoo and brand that signified her resonance had flared up, glowing an eerie blue, and had started to spread.
Ignoring the possible dangers, he sat down, and pulled her into his lap, slowly stroking her hair. The guide barely felt anything for her, other than the pull of Lust that still permeated the room, but he pushed that feeling down, and instead focused on her. As a part of Lewis, he knew why he was here, and what he was doing to help, but he had his…disagreements with it all. The guide was a doubting part, the one that saw the changes she had made, and how much they had thrown away for her. If he hadn’t been so immune to the other vices, he may have been something of a Sin himself.
The guide sighed as she started to rouse herself. He wasn’t sure why he kept petting her, but a part of him wanted to. A motion that felt familiar, even if there was no meaning behind it. Perhaps it was something that the true Lewis loved to do.
“You’re awake,” he said as she started to speak. “Lady Angela knows very well what dangers can happen. But this link between us is something even she has little say over. Once it’s established, it will either power you, or burn you alive. You’d do best to remember that. If you die…so do we…”
It took her a moment to stand, and even with help she was still shaky. It didn’t help that she was a mess from Lust, as well as a mess from the resonance starting to leak magic. Still, she was adamant with her next demand. A bath. The guide was half dragged out of the room, and with a bit of remembering on Simone’s part, they found a washroom in the memory of Auclair.
Simone drew a bath, and dipped herself in, but refused to let the guide leave. So, he was stuck there, his arms crossed as he stood in the entryway, waiting for her to finish. That was when she asked the question.
“You won’t like the answer,” the guide said. “Lewis loves you with his heart and soul. He’s buried the feelings of doubt and regret, but that doesn’t mean that they don’t exist. It’s the darkest part in all of our souls.” He looked her dead in the eye. “You can tell me all you want that you don’t regret meeting Lewis, but…” He waved his hand in the air, “ A part of regret, even if you don’t realize it, is accepting all of the bad things, as well as the good things. Sure, meeting Lewis is the love of your life, but…in order for that to happen, you’ve had to shudder thousands of years of torment. If you could trade Lewis away to have never experienced it, would you?”
He put up his hand before she could answer. “You can’t answer that. At this point, your mind and soul are biased. You can’t possibly comprehend how life could have been. But that’s how curiosity works when regret is involved. A dark part of you will always wonder….”
“What. If?”
The guide sighed. “What if we had never met. What if the fae lord had never tried to take you. What if you accepted the fae lord. What if Lewis had never surrendered his icy, cold and calculating self for this emotional being he’s become.” The guide chuckled. “Do we regret it? Not on the surface…but deep, deep down where he represses his doubts and fears…”
“Maybe. Maybe he does. Just like you…”