Once Simone was ready to start talking, Lewis moved to the opposite side of the bath, so he could look at Simone and give her his full attention. Whatever she had to say, it was important, and he wanted to make sure she was being heard. He had waited a long time for her to finally open up about it all. He would wait until the end to give his own opinions…if she wanted them.
She started with the imprisonment, the time when she was tortured and raped on a regular basis. That was, perhaps, the hardest thing to start with, and at once Lewis clenched his fist. It was hard to hear…not because he thought of Simone less, but more because he had no way to erase that past of hers. But, he stayed quiet, and let her know that he was paying attention.
Simone was strong at the start, but as she started to tell it, her voice wavered. At one point, her voice cracked, and she had to stop. Tears started to stream down her face, and she had to take a moment before she continued. At this, Lewis did move closer, and took her hand, encouraging her to continue. She smiled at that.
The resonance was all over the place. Simone was a mix of pain, sorrow, and the tiniest bit of relief that Lewis was still there. From Lewis was concern, hatred, and helplessness that he couldn’t help her…but underneath it all, supporting it, was love. Not once did Simone feel that Lewis wanted her to stop, or to leave. Not once did she feel his love for her waver. If anything, it grew stronger.
Finally, though, she finished the period of her imprisonment.
“I want to keep going,” she said after a moment of silence. “But…the children…”
Lewis nodded. “We can continue later,” he said. “But…Simone..thank you.” He leaned over and kissed her. She could tell that he wanted to smile at her, but the gravity of what she had told him was weighing on him. “I knew it was bad…but I never knew it was this bad. I…don’t have the words to make it go away. There’s nothing I can do to make it disappear…but I’m here for you. I always will be…”
He smiled. “And…I’ve thought about it. Simone…the Guide and the younger Simone are both you. Even if they…became one with you, or whatever it is…they would still be there. In here…” He poked at her chest. “Even now…there are pieces of them that come out in the way you smile…but I’m sure that if they were all there, you’d feel more at ease…”