Fenriz was surprised that Lixue had answered every question he had put forth, though some of the answers made him wish she hadn't. Lixue was always so composed and put together, and a part of him was convinced that she would have some wise words to at least slightly put his concerns to rest. Finding out that not only did not, but the degree to which she attempted to combat them instilled a brand new sense of dread in his heart. The mental image of the undead going through such an ordeal should the gaes activate was proving equally as traumatic as picturing the family that had been butchered by his own hand. The more time they spent together, the greater the burdens Lixue took on seemed to become, and with them grew the concern he felt for his fellow undead. Still, if he had to choose someone to share a similar predicament with, knowing that it was someone as poised as her at least offered him some measure of comfort.
"Miss Lixue, are you okay? You were like that for a long time…" Figuring it was now safe to do so, he pulled himself to his feet and cautiously yet steadily made his way over to where she had placed herself, though he kept a few feet in between them just in case. In an average scenario, Fenriz would no doubt have many questions about the meditative process Lixue had just put herself through. Yet for once he found himself too nervous to ask, fearful of the information he might obtain as a result. "I'm really sorry about your parents. I really shouldn't have asked…"
Having grown so accustomed to others either withholding information or offering half-answers to protect his younger sensibilities, Fenriz usually appreciated Lixue's more direct method of answering his questions. As such, he wasn't surprised when she replied to his inquiries to her past the way she did. Given his already darkened mood however, he was hopeful this would yield even a slightly more positive response Even if the intricacies of being forced to marry for power were lost on him, he wasn't certain he wanted further elaboration.
"Thank you for listening to all of that, by the way. I'm not really sure where it all came from. I got kind of carried away, huh? I feel better now though” He did his best to put on an authentic smile, though how convincing it was he couldn't say. It mattered little, as the faux smile faded as quickly as he had donned it.
"I haven't even told sis that most of that stuff." Picturing the angel's likely worried reaction to the information he had just given Lixue caused him to grimace. Even if there were few secrets between the two, this wasn't a worry he was willing to put her through. "If you ever do meet her, please don't tell her about this, okay?"
The pleading look upon his face suggested that it was imperative that this remain a secret between the two of them. Of all the promises they had made, perhaps none were more important to the young vampire than this one. Whether or not it was necessary, only time would tell. But Fenriz seemed hopeful that the scant few people he held to importance in his life would cross paths at some point.
Glancing out of what was either once a window, or a hole in the building caused by the ravages of time, the boy flinched as he noted the coloration of the skyline outside. Upon turning around, he noticed a lengthy hallway. He took a few steps toward it, pausing briefly to address Lixue once more. "It's getting pretty late, for me at least. I'm gonna go see if I can find a room without a window since… well you know. Don't worry about me though. Goodnight Miss Lixue!"
With a small wave and a slightly more genuine smile, he turned to traverse the hallway, checking each room along the way for one that was intact enough to shelter him from the sun. Eventually he happened upon one that, while not perfect, would suffice so long as he avoided a smaller portion of the room. He glanced back one last time toward the main room. A part of him wondered whether she'd still be around when he awoke. She had more than filled her obligations to him by this point. Given how busy her life seemed to be, combined with the preceding events he would have to be understanding if she wasn't. Still, a selfish part of him felt anxious at the thought. With a sigh, he passed through what remained of the doorway of the room he had chosen, a room that was still partially illuminated by the orb of light Lixue had summoned.
Setting his cloak aside, he settled into a corner of the room with intent to fall asleep. It didn't take long to realize that this wasn't likely to happen. Though his body was certainly still fatigued, his mind was far too active to settle down for the morning. With another heavy sigh he took to his seated position, leaned up against the wall.
"I wonder what mom and dad would say…" he mumbled quietly to himself "I should probably apologize to Miss Lixue for dumping all of that on her. That's probably what dad would tell me to do. At least I think so. It's been so long now…"
Knowing that lingering on his parents would do little to improve his mood, he tried to change gears, though his next train of thought certainly wasn't much better. "Dad's probably right anyway. Miss Lixue has way too much going on to worry about my dumb problems"
Feeling the negative emotions encroaching upon him once more, he shook his head. Figuring it was going to be a while before he could get to sleep, it might be a bit better to use this time for something more productive. He stood up, only to take a seat in the middle of the room, he pointed a hand toward the nearest shadow source, molding them into a bird that rested upon his head. Remembering Lixue's words about starting small, he repeated the same trick he had performed for her when she met. But he would repeat the process, summoning more and more birds from wherever he could find shadows to make them. Before long, there were several shadowy birds scattered across the room, including the one on his head and two now perched on his shoulders. The boy couldn't help but giggle at his own creations, his laughter growing louder with each new creation.
Though he had, by now, summoned more birds than he had ever intentionally done before, his brain had come up with one more idea. Drawing from one last source, he molded this one into five, small humanoid beings, one being adorned with shadowy wings, and another, despite the lack of detail was very clearly dressed in a vastly different fashion than the rest. Even without facial features, it didn't take much imagination to realize who they were supposed to represent, this being likely the closest he was going to come to having his sisters, Lixue, and his parents in the same vicinity. Still, even if it wasn't exactly the real deal, the thought alone was enough to bring a bright smile to his young face.