The young winged man rode behind his father at the head of the column returning from the goblin raid. Head inclined forward, he stared silently at the rump of his father's unicorn as he mulled over the day's events. He felt shame for his demeanor in the goblin tunnels. From his time squiring for the Archon among his people, he knew that Atavians were naturally averse to dark, cramped underground spaces. Even so, Raphael never imagined he would be so affected as they plunged underground. As the rock closed in around them, barely lit by the light of dim torches, Raphael had begun to feel his throat tighten - as if there was not enough air down in that enclosed space. With no sky above him the Atavian had felt so restricted. All he wanted to do at that moment was to spread his wings and fly, so much so that they twitched and shifted on his back. Men had noticed, including Olvar, his father's beast of a squire. The man's annoyed glance still burned in his memory. Each step had been harder than the last, as if weights had been tied to his ankles. Combat had come as a welcome relief. While others were alarmed at the sudden onrush of goblins from ahead and out of hidden side passages, Raphael had felt a wash of relief. Focusing on the technical aspects of combat and the thrill of battle cleansed his mind from the fear of the tight tunnel. A goblin had jumped out of a side tunnel, his poison blade slipping off Raphael's leather pauldron. As he turned in surprise to face the creature, Anguy felled him with a single arrow, likely saving Raphael's life. He was glad that his father hadn't been nearby to notice, nor the wolfman he called a squire. Afterward he had interposed himself in the side tunnel, kite shield up and spear held firm. He played the proper spearman then, blocking off the passage with his shield. The ensuing pattern of block, bash, and stab had been almost meditative to him, and the sound Anguy's arrows made as they flew over his shoulder reminded him of the wind. At that moment he was elated. This was what he was made for, what he had spent his whole life training for. Smiting those vile creatures made him feel whole for the first time since coming to these shores.
The moment was disappointingly short, however. Soon the goblin attack floundered, and the rest of the day was spent going about the grim work of marching up and down the various passages, trapping and killing the surviving goblins within. The claustrophobic feeling had soon returned, and stayed with Raphael throughout that time. At one point they found a nursery, full of goblin babes and toddlers. Steelshanks ordered the men to put them down, but Raphael had protested that they were but children. His father had given him a sad look, explaining that goblins quickly grew and multiplied, and that if they didn't completely clear the nest the village would be preyed upon again come next year. It was vile work, but it needed doing. Even so, he noticed that his father did not join Steelshanks and his men in the culling of the babes. Neither did Raphael. Olvar did, however, little to his surprise.
At last they found the cavern where the women and other spoils from the village were being kept. The state of them horrified Raphael, bringing back memories of MacLeary and the little girl. He had thought none could be so cruel as those highland bandits. He had been wrong. Visibly shaken, he had excused himself from that cavern and the work that remained, ostensibly to prepare their horses. As they exited the caves Raphael reveled in the sweetness of the open air and the warmth of the sun upon his brow, as wonderful as a maiden's kiss. He decided then that he hated caves, and that he hated goblins most of all. Once the others had returned he fell in behind his father and did his best not to look at the poor women the goblins had defiled. Every time he did his chagrin rose. He had helped kill the goblins, brought justice to them for their crimes, but he could not undo the damage they had done. He knew there was nothing more he could have done, yet his heart felt that he hadn't done enough. Raphael wondered if his father felt this way, when all he could do was give justice in place of righting wrongs.
For now, Raphael tried to push away his misgivings with thoughts of what lay ahead. The village would be ecstatic at their triumphant return. They would no doubt throw a feast to celebrate. There would be food, drink, music, and dancing. Raphael loved to dance. The thought brought a smile to his face. And after that, they would get back to their routine on the road.
It was a routine he had come to enjoy, in the months since they had departed the highlands. In the early mornings before camp broke Simon and Rhygar would drill Raphael and Olvar in the arts of Knighthood: the lance and shield, sword, morningstar, and dagger. Sometimes they would work on the unarmed arts: pugilism and wrestling. Other days they would work on riding, for a Knight was nothing without his mount. Other days were conditioning days: they would swim, run, or climb, or work on calisthenics while the sweat dripped from their pores. Once a week they would spar. On those days Steelshanks and some of his men would often join them. Raphael was the least of them, for now, but he was quickly learning to use his wings to make up the skill gap. He could flap and flutter about to come at his opponents from awkward angles, or to quickly dart in and out of reach. He could use them to buffet his opponents with air to throw them off balance, or even to push and grapple. Of late he had been working on using his wingtips to sweep at his opponent's lead ankle. He had sent Anguy down once with a startled yell, and had quickly followed up on the poor lad, forcing him to yield. The memory made Raphael proud.
In the evenings after camp was made Steelshanks would drill his men: going over formations, marching, large group and small unit tactics. His father had their group join in on most days, for a Knight also had to be a battlefield commander and to do so he had to be well versed in battlefield formations and tactics. On some nights, though, he would pull Raphael aside and teach him the ancient Paladin arts of their House. Raphael particularly enjoyed those nights, getting to be one-on-one with his father without the constant aggravating presence of Olvar, always trying to one-up him. Less enjoyable were the nights of the new moon, where Simon and Olvar would strike out on their own to train with Olvar's lupine form. Raphael did his best to hide his jealousy. His father had sent him away to one place or another for most of his life, hardly spending any time with him at all. That commoner, on the other hand, had been his father's companion for years. Olvar had received all of Simon's attention, guidance, and trust, and Raphael envied him for it.
Raphael was startled out of his reverie by a brusque command from his father. "By your command, Ser," Raphael acknowledged, then spread his wings and took to flight. As he gained elevation he noticed Olvar racing ahead below. The young nobleman rolled his eyes. Always the one-upper. If the Gods were good, his lord father would give the peasant a thorough verbal thrashing for his presumptiveness.
As he gained the air his sharp Atavian eyes sighted the column of smoke on the horizon. Wings beating, he flew yet higher and toward the source of it. He soon sighted it, to his horror.
He dove back toward the column, the wind screaming past his ears as he hastily descended. Just before the ground he spread his wings wide, the air absorbing his momentum. His legs swung forward and Raphael hit the ground at a run. "The village!" he screamed as he rushed back to his mount and hopped atop it. "The village is under attack!"