[OOC: Larka and Celeste are using the two journals to communicate, but Celeste doesn't know that it's Larka reply to her in the journal. Celeste's journal can be found
Here ]
Because you are you, that's what makes you special. Your wife loves you and she is as much yours as you are hers, you are always on her mind. Deep down she hides the pain, but not from you, you alone are the one that she trusts with her darkest secrets and hidden emotions, things that no one else will ever know.
Keep running, if it makes you happy, you have come a long way in a short time and are only going to get better. I know it, I can feel it. I believe your wife knows how to meditate, she used to do it years ago, did she not? Maybe she can help, she hasn't likely forgotten how, just hasn't used it. Never think you are weak, Celeste, you are not, you are strong, you have survived so much that would have broken those lesser than you long before and much faster. The drow may have 'broken' you, but the joke is on them, they're dead, you aren't, you survived and are whole once again with the woman that loves and will take care of you forever.
They only stole the material from you, Celeste, you came out of that hole damaged but alive. You fought them at the end! Do you not remember? You kept a knife hidden away until the right time, and killed them, they never broke you!
My time grows short for now, I hope you write back. But please remember, you are loved, you are special to her, no matter what foolish thing she may do, she loves you.
Until next time,
Your Journal